Tag: war

  • Heartbreak.

    Heartbreak.

    The heartbreak is heavy. It’s an anchor, weighing me down, weighing my finger down when I’m about to click ‘play’ on the livestream. It’s so heavy that in the last 18 hours I can’t bring myself to refresh anymore. The first week, I absorbed the news every spare chance I had. At my desk while…

  • Sense.

    Sense.

    Do you also get the sensation that you can’t remember what life was like before February 2020? It feels like pre-2020 reality is a fading dust, I can barely feel it on my fingertips as it floats away… And I’d been feeling this for long before a Jewish President of Ukraine became a global symbol…

  • The yearly struggle (No, we’re not over the Holocaust yet).

    The yearly struggle (No, we’re not over the Holocaust yet).

    I’ve been struggling a little more the last few months. Struggling with something dark and damp and desperate, twisting itself among my veins, reaching across my heart and nipping at my soul. My growing morbidity. I’ve been morbid since I can remember. As a kid, I had freakish nightmares despite a safe and happy daylife.…

  • What's been going on.

    The past week and a half has been intense, painful, busy, impatient,  energetic, emotional, nerve-wracking and exciting. And it’s not only for the reason you’re probably assuming. I haven’t  been able to get all my thoughts out in an organized manner, so instead I’ll spew them in bullet form. People will ask what gender your…

  • Bracing for heartbreak… but still hoping.

    I know, I know. I won’t believe it till I see it, either. The Israeli in me is skeptical/angry/excited, the spouse in me is tormented/emotional/hopeful, and the mediator in me is curious/reflective/fatigued. For better or worse, I’m indulging in this: Eldad Regev’s father: Deal finalized for abducted troops’ return The father of abducted Israel Defense…

  • *Nudge* The kidnapped soldiers have not been returned.

    It’s a year and a half later, and the three kidnapped soldiers from summer 2006 – Ehud Goldwasser, Eldad Regev and Gilad Shalit have not been returned to us. The Keren Maor Foundation was founded to assist and support the families of these three soldiers, and to raise awareness until they are brought home from…