I get it now.

I get it now.

6 years of Israel action commitees; 4 years of leadership; dozens of conferences, rallies and tables in the quad…

I get it now. I live here and I see the side I’ve been trying to defend, clear as glass; that side is me now.

The news here is showng something completely different than what my family and friends are seeing abroad. The media is bullshit and the EU and UN’s naive statements make me want to vomit. I am getting physically frustrated with everyone else’s “expertise.” I am mentally exhausted, I am confused, I am unsettled, and I am angry. Now I am living on the side of the misunderstood, I am living misunderstood, I am misunderstood and I just want to take everyone and shut them up or make them hurt like I hurt.

(But now I will comfort myself because on channel 1 they are playing a Golani brigade celebration of Yom Haatzmaut 14 years ago; our only guess is that it’s on to boost the morale of the reserves.)

Despite all of this, I still feel like I’m in the right place at the right time. I don’t fear for myself; I fear for the people who may never understand and will face ‘too late’ too soon.